Give up, feel pitty?
NO WAY! I keep fighting and I keep trying even if I get knocked down.
The last few months have been tough. I know you guys don’t know everything, but switching jobs has been tough. I haven’t been making the money I need to make to survive. I am making it happen because of some support from friends and family.
I know my worth and won’t settle for less when it comes to which company I work for to teach English. I love teaching with Open English because I always have classes when I work. The problem is they don’t pay much. I also work for VIPKid, but it has been slow to gain students. I have been looking for other companies like VIPKid, but haven’t found the perfect one.
Am I letting this stop me from living my best life?
HELL NO!! I am doing everything I can to make it work. I am unstoppable. I’m not letting this stop me. I am fighting and I am so pumped for what happens in the future. I know my life is getting better because the struggle is real.
I have been interviewing with as many companies to find the perfect one. I also scored a job with an amazing girl here in Costa Rica. I’m helping her with her blog and learning along the way. I took over managing a facebook group which has been an amazing experience. Even though I am not making money I am gaining so much self-confidence and experience that it is well worth it!
The Universe knows all!
In the last few weeks, I have been thinking about moving. I live farther from the beach so I don’t take as many photos of the sunsets for the blog. I don’t have as many beautiful places in my house to showcase for my blog. I miss the beach. I miss the town of Brasilito. I knew everyone and everyone knew me. At my place now, I don’t know anyone. It’s not a community. Even though I am an introvert, I can learn so much from being around people. I miss the connection I had in my old town.
Yesterday, it all started. I went to a swap meet for the facebook group I now run. I ran into a lady who lives in Brasilito. Her apartment complex has some openings. It would be 2 minutes from the beach, a hotel with a pool I can use 100 meters away, and it has plenty of space for Nina to run. I went to check out her place and fell in love. The only problem is she doesn’t allow pets.
Today, my landlord tells me I owe him $180 for electricity. I already pay him $60 so it’s so much more. I can’t afford that. And IT IS OUTRAGEOUS!! In my old apartment, I never paid over $100 for electricity and the room was smaller. I am feeling like it is all happening because it’s meant to be for me to move.
The only thing standing in the way is the apartment I want may not let me live there because of Nina. I am going to talk to her tomorrow, hopefully, I can convince her to let us move in. If it doesn’t happen, I know the universe has a plan.
“Love is everything”
As I sit here typing, I am watching soul surfer. It is the story of Bethany Hamilton. The girl who lost her arm to a shark attack while surfing. She beat all odds to get back out there to surf. She hit some big waves, and she overcame them all.
In the movie, she said love and compassion were what helped her through. While she was in Thailand helping the people recover after the massive tsunami, she realized that it’s not about surfing, it’s about love. She allowed herself to love herself again even though she wasn’t “whole”.
She inspired so many people with her attempt to get back out on the waves. She lost and she got beat down, but she tried. It is all about love and trying. In the movie, Bethany stated that she would never change what happened to her because she has more love now than she ever could with two arms.
The more you overcome your difficulties, the more love you have for yourself. You see how strong you are and you see what you are capable of accomplishing.
Change isn’t easy, but it’s worth it.
I am scared about moving houses. I also know that moving houses is the best thing for me and my career. In the last month, I have conquered so many fears. I am staying calm and looking forward to the future. I have realized that even though I am an empath and an introvert, I can have the relationships I desire to have.
Change is hard, and it is what can bring you a life-changing event. So, what are you afraid to do because you think you’re not good enough or capable enough? I can tell you from experience that none of that is true. You are GOOD ENOUGH and CAPABLE ENOUGH to have whatever you want in life. You have to work for it. You have to feel uncomfortable and do what no one else would do.
I promise a short time of being uncomfortable will change your entire future. Feeling uncomfortable is temporary if you learn, grow, fight, and never give up.
Go after your dreams. Make a statement. Live your best life. Be free!