Category: Stories

Scared to be Lonely

How many of you are scared to be lonely? How many of you go from boyfriend or girlfriend to the next? How many of you feel “worthless” without someone near? 

It happens to a lot of people. Me, included. Society tells us so many times that we need a family or someone to make us happy. We have romantic movies that tell the story of the woman needing a man for help or needing a man to be happy. We have music that is all about love and relationships and being with that perfect someone. There are even love coaches you can hire to help you find your true love (and they make thousands of dollars doing it). 

That is all well and good, but we can’t rely on someone to be with us every day and minute of our lives. Things happen. People have to go away for one reason or another. Sometimes it’s for work and other times it’s for emergencies with family. We need to happy to be alone because we are the only person who is there for us all the time, forever. 

Loving yourself first

My website is all about finding yourself and loving yourself. I want to help you be so confident with yourself whether you are single or not, you won’t be scared to be lonely. When we are afraid to be alone, it means we are afraid to be with our selves. I am building courses and webinars to give you yourself back. To be confident and amazed at how being alone (for long periods of time or short) can really be beneficial for you and the ones you love.

There are so many ways to love being with yourself. It is scary at first, but it is so amazing and rewarding. You have so much power and energy that you light up the room. You don’t care what anyone thinks and if someone doesn’t treat you right or isn’t aligned with your goals, you let them go without thinking twice. 

Scared to be Lonely

One of my favorite songs is called “Scared to be Lonely” by Dua Lipa and Martin Garrix. It is honest and real about what some of us face with being alone. Have a listen…

Some of the lyrics are questions… you know I love questions. They can really get you thinking about the relationship you’re in. Here are a few of my favorites.

  1. Do we need somebody just to feel like we’re alright?
  2. Are we scared to be lonely?
  3. Why do we keep coming back for more?
  4. Is it just our bodies, are we both losing our minds?
  5. Is the only reason you’re holding me tonight is because we’re scared to be lonely?
  6. How can we keep holding on when we know it wrong?

Questions need honest answers

If we want better, we have to answer the questions honestly. I have coached many people on how to have a better life in the last few years. The ones that succeed and achieve a better life are those that answer the questions that arise honestly. It is a struggle even for me to answer questions honestly. I know deep inside I can’t lie to myself because it will get me nowhere. The people who have grown from my coaching have dug deep within to find the strength to be honest with themselves about what and why they do things. 

Answer this honestly

Are you scared to be lonely? Are you with someone or in a situation that doesn’t work for you because you are afraid to be with yourself? Go back and answer some of the questions from the song. It won’t be easy and it will be worth it. Once you figure out the answers, the choices you make will be easier to do. 

It is not easy letting go. It is not easy answering questions honestly because once you’re honest, you have to act accordingly. I struggle with this many times. I know how hard it is to do. I also know how powerful and strong you feel after.

If you need a coach to help you ask questions and help you find the answers, message me. Remember, for my coaching to work you need to be honest with yourself and open to new ideas and ways of life. 

Importance of Community

I have written about the sense of community and volunteering in the past. It really is important on a spiritual and mental level. I don’t know how people can live without a community surrounding them. I don’t know how I functioned for 6 months without the community of Brasilito. 

A Beach Clean Up with the Local Police

Community gives you a sense of belonging

When I lived in Brasilito before I had a huge sense of belonging. I had people I could go to for smoothies or support. I was always saying “Hola, como estas?” (Hi, how are you?) or “Buenas” (good morning). I knew everyone and everyone knew me even if it wasn’t a deep knowing. 

I felt like I belonged in this little town. I felt like I had a community there for me no matter what would happen. They could help me with anything I needed whether it be a smoothie date or company on the beach. Or just that pick me up “hello”. 

Having a town or village that surrounds you gives you so much more spiritually and mentally than most people realize. It gives you peace of mind knowing you have people to help you in need or people to go to with questions and concerns or just someone to say hi. It is something we all need and crave as a way of life.

Community builds love

I have so much love and appreciation for the little town I live in, but also for the world around me. I volunteer to teach English to someone in Jordan (in the Middle East). I have friends from all over the US and the world from my TEFL course

There are so much love and appreciation for different cultures and different ways of life. I am learning about other cultures in China and Jordan from teaching online. I am learning about the Spanish culture here in CR, but also abroad because of Open English. It is just amazing. 

I am consistently filled with love because of the openness and community of the many cultures that surround me. 

The building community can be far and near.

No matter where you are you can have a sense of community with others near and far. I have people that are close to me on a daily basis. I also have others that I know only through the computer. And the sense of community is the same. 

Yes, It is great to have people close to you to have for emergencies like taking care of your dog while you’re out of town. A friend of mine has been out of town for a month. She has had so much help and support while gone with her dog and her bills (most bills can’t be paid online here). My friend has expressed her gratitude and love of this little community we have here many times over the month. It is a wonderful experience. 

Nina and her New friend.

But… it can also be an online community. There is an online community of woman that I am apart of that is always there to answer questions and supports all women. It is based here in CR. They do community awareness events like beach clean-ups. They also support local businesses by offering discounts and some proceeds go to the local charities. I don’t know some of these women personally, but they are always there when someone needs support. Nina has even found best friends to play with, in our new community!

Go out and find your community

Go out and find your community, whether it be online or in-person. You will live a happy and connected life. Once you find that perfect community for you, you will have love and belonging. It is part of the self-love steps I’ve talked about before, mental and spiritual. 

Some communities may be geared toward physical and other aspects of self. Which is amazing as well. We need to fill our own selves up with what we need. 

SO GO OUT AND BE LOVE!

Manifesting Life with Positive Thoughts

Have you ever thought about your life and what you wanted out of it? What would you want from life? Or do you already live the life you want?

I have been learning how to manifest what I want in my life with my thoughts. It is no easy task and it takes time and patience. It does work and it does pay off. You can do the same with your life. Whatever you want to accomplish you can manifest it. If you want something in life, you can have it. 

jetski on the water

Choose what you want and commit to it

The first step is choosing what you want and committing to it. Take time to think about what it is you want because sometimes we want things out of ego. Doing things out of ego doesn’t really turn out well from what I have experienced. It will always bring a learning experience so if you do make an ego decision, it will be fine, just learn and grow.

Think about your future and where you want to be in 5 or 10 years. If you want to live a free and independent life, then what you chose should be in line with that. If you want to love yourself more, then it should be in line with self-love. 

When I decided to move to Costa Rica, it was a quick (4 months), but much thought out move. I knew in my soul I needed to live alone without roommates of any kind. I knew I couldn’t do this in the states because of how expensive it is. Also, my soul wanted to experience life abroad in a new culture. 

I had already quit my job. I was searching for a new job and nothing seemed to be what would work for me. I thought about being a live-in nanny, but I had heard stories about that really being a 24/7 thing. I definitely didn’t want that. The salary for jobs and the cost to live alone wasn’t adding up for me. I knew the cost of living and the payment in Costa Rica would be perfect. 

Manifest it in your thoughts and soul

Once I committed to making the move everything fell into place. I did some soul searching and dug deep into myself. During this process, I was sure that Costa Rica was the place for me. I could feel the self-love rising. I could feel a new me coming out and was loving it 

While I was searching for jobs, I let my soul speak to me. I sat quietly (internally) during interviews and felt what my soul was wanting. When I was at home with my then fiance, I sat quietly internally, feeling what was going on within me and around me. 

Manifesting our thoughts and souls requires stillness. While everything is moving and flowing you are above it all just watching what’s going on. This allows you to see areas of your life that need growth. Your soul knows exactly what you need… so manifest what it wants by letting life flow and listening.

How do we manifest with our thoughts?

We do this by feeling our souls. Let your soul speak into your thoughts. Allow yourself the calm and peace within to flow and move. Let all the thoughts go.

When thoughts like “how will I pay my bills?” or “how will I survive if I quit my job?” arise, just let them flow. They are legit thoughts. They have a place to be in your head, but they aren’t everything. We have to trust and let the universe do its thing. When we manifest what we truly want, it all works out. We manifest now what we want in the future. So, thoughts and internal feelings are key. 

Keep your thoughts positive and higher energy. Keep in the present moment. Keep giving yourself the self-love you need. BELIEVE AND INTERNALIZE that you are worth it and it is possible.

How it looks for me

A few months ago, I quit my secure and steady job. I am made the change with so many thoughts and concerns. I, however, knew my soul needed this. When my soul needs, something I allow it to be. There is something bigger coming.

I still don’t make enough money to live alone again. I have a roommate to help with the bills, but last week my soul said: “live alone!!” So, my roommate is finding a new place. 

My thoughts are “How will I pay for all my bills?” and “Am I ready for this?” 

I have not a damn clue. I do know that I am manifesting right now what will take place in the future. I am allowing the thoughts and questions to flow and I am living in the moment. I am giving my soul what it needs. Daily trips to the beach, working on the blog and coaching business, and my internal self

I lost a little independence

Since my roommate loves to help and is always here. I became a little lazy. I relied on him to get a glass of water or go to the store for eggs. I didn’t feel confident to go out alone. I always needed him or someone to go with me. 

I started realizing this is not me and nor did I like it. I really hated the feeling. I hated feeling needy and attached. I gained weight and just didn’t feel like my self 100%. 

Nina playing with a friend while I relax and enjoy the time alone.

So, this move to live alone is much needed because I know its the way to gain my independence back. Since I made the decision, I am already doing things on my own. I am already going to the beach solo and shopping solo. Slowly, the energy I once had is finding its way back to me. 

I never lost myself and for that I am thankful. Laziness is a downfall for me. I can learn and conquer this with manifesting a better future right now. 

If I can do it…. So can you!

Let the thoughts flow. Find your inner soul and listen to what it says. Make small changes over time and stay in the moment. The moment, right now, is where we manifest the future. 

Let me know what you think. Let me know what you do to manifest what you want in life. I would love to hear how you make this life YOURS!

Beautiful People and Core Values

I recently heard the song beautiful people by Ed Sheeran. It got me thinking about who I might become if I pursue my coaching business. I am good at helping people find their inner selves. I have seen friends’ and family member’s lives change because of the work I have done with them. I am confident. I am successful in coaching. I bring my core values into my life in every way.

The song insinuates that Beautiful people are people who pop champagne bottles or drive Lamborghinis. Beautiful people are people who sit in the front row of fashion shows or have prenups and broken homes. And that they don’t want to be beautiful people. They aren’t beautiful, it’s not who they are.

I was thinking, would that become me? Would I be the person popping champagne bottles and all glammed up with makeup and the finest of things? Who would I become when I make it in my new career? 

I love the song, but I think we are all beautiful people. Even without the extravagant lifestyle and fancy things, we are all beautiful people. So we already are beautiful people. 

It leads me to keep thinking about the questions I have and how it could benefit you.

Have you ever wanted to switch careers, but were afraid too because you weren’t sure who you’d become?

Have you ever been afraid to make more money because that could bring more fame, more opportunities, and more success?

As I begin my self-love coaching career, I have those fears. I see so many life coaches on Instagram that have these extravagant lifestyles. I have personally seen people change before my eyes because of money. 

It is scary to watch because I want to stay the same humble, thrifty, and the true person I am. It is normal to fear change and what could happen. We all have fears about the unknown. The truth is we will change. We will become someone new. 

We will change

We do have control over that person we become if we stay conscious and aware during the process. When we have our core values deeply ingrained in our being, we will be able to remember and see if who we are becoming is in-line with that. 

If your core values are to be humble and give back to society. If this value is deep within you, as you continue to grow more financially independent you will give back in the ways that align with your core standards. You will continue to do what you already do, just on a bigger scale. 

Some people put a high value on appearances and lifestyles, so when they gain more money they will do this on a bigger scale than they did before. That is okay because that is what they align with. Everyone has the need to look good and have a nice lifestyle, which is great, but we have control over how much we power we put on those needs. 

Our core values dictate how we live our lives no matter who successful or poor we are. As I work on my coaching program I am figuring out what my core values are so that I can stay true to them in my career and life.

Change is good

Change brings a new way of living. It reminds you that you are alive. We can truly live our best life as we grow into our true selves. The only way to achieve that is to grow and change. Learning what our core values are and how we can live our lives according to those values is the best way to know that we will become the person we truly are. There won’t be the fear that you will become someone different, that you don’t like if you know your core values deeply.

Stay tuned for my course in finding your core values. It is geared toward helping you determine what are the most important values in your life.

Rainy Season in Costa Rica

Rainy season in Costa Rica is a beautiful and magical time of the year. The rain allows the trees to turn bright green and the flowers to bloom. It makes the ground wet so there isn’t dust and dirt flying when the wind blows. 

It is the cheaper season because it does rain all the time. Tourist come and enjoy the relaxing and peaceful rainy season. They go on horseback riding tours and ATV tours. The tourist swim in the ocean and ride jet skis.

There is a dark side 

The rainy season has a dark and horrific side.  It brings RAIN! Torrential downpours and flash flooding. The tree roots are so saturated in water that they begin to fall with the heavy winds. The power and internet go out and access to food can be limited if the rivers are blocking the roads. 

Schools and businesses do not open because it is dangerous to drive or be out in the heavy rains. If a person isn’t prepared with food and supplies it could be a rough time for them as the rains can last for days. The rivers and flooding can take time to lower. 

This affects those in poverty

Guanacaste is one of the poorest provinces in Costa Rica. Many families are struggling to make ends meet. They are fighting to put food on the table for their children. They live in houses that I wouldn’t even call a house. I would call them shacks. Literally shacks. The wooden walls have holes you can see right through. They have tin roofs with no insulation. Some places only have bars for windows. 

When the rains come, people who live here and are more wealthy can afford to buy sandbags and take preventative measures to ensure flooding doesn’t happen. They have houses that are on higher grounds or have a foundation that elevates their houses.

More than half of the locals who live in this region, don’t have the financial means to take these precautions. 

So, what happens? 

Every year for 2-3 weeks, they are taken away from their homes with nothing. The locals lose EVERYTHING, clothes, beds, bathroom supplies, and so much more. They have to evacuate their homes. Some do not have anywhere to go. They sleep in a hammock or in the street. 

They need to rely on non-profit organizations such as CEPIA and the local church. 

Every year the families need to rebuild their lives. They need to replace everything that was lost. Beds, chairs, cooking supplies, toilet paper, deodorant, diapers, and much much more. 

It is devastating. The families are reliant on donations from amazing and loving people from our community. 

I have helped every year in one way or another.

The first year I was here, Hurrican Nate hit us hard. The worst rainy season I have seen. People couldn’t leave their houses due to the flooding of the rivers for a week. Beach Community Church provided locals with food and toilet paper to help them survive. I was able to participate and help carry the supplies to those in need.

Last year, I donated some rice and beans to locals in need. Since I don’t make much money either it was all I could do. 

This year, my friend and neighbor Isa is housing a family of 5 from CEPIA in her spare bedroom and living room. I provided clothes and a sofa bed for them to use. I gave them access to my washing machine so they could wash their clothes. I loaned Isa around $40 to help buy food for the family. The 3 little girls have been using my toys and a stuffed animal to help them feel at home. We took turns painting each other’s nails to keep busy.

This morning, they told us they needed diapers for the 2-year-old girl. So, I went to the super and bought some diapers and deodorant for the mother. 

I also started a GoFundMe to help raise money for the locals and their families. There is only so much we can do, but donations of any size help. 

I will use the money to support the family Isa is housing as well as other families in the CEPIA organization and the Beach Community Church. 

The rainy season is not easy.

The rainy season is not easy for the locals here. It is something they fear and stress about this time of year because they know they will lose their homes.

Sometimes we forget how fortunate we are. This morning Isa and I were reminded just how lucky we are. One of the little girls asked Isa, “Are you a millionaire?” Isa started crying because it looks like she is to them. Isa doesn’t have much and she struggles to provide for herself, but the little girl thinks she was a millionaire based on her house and things. 

This family and the locals here in Costa Rican always remind me to be grateful and loving towards everything I have whether big or small. I am lucky and so are you. It is a tough life for others out there. 

Be Grateful and allow yourself to donate or help those around you in any way you can. 

SELF-LOVE is the way to find the universe because the universe is within you

sunset on the beach. two chairs facing the beach.

The Stray: The Movie

I was watching a movie called “The Stray” on Netflix this evening. The movie is a true story. It’s about a stray dog that found the Davis Family. The Davis Family is a family of five, three kids and two parents. They had some struggles during their time in California. The boy had trouble with bullies. The parent’s marriage was on the edge. The dad worked day and night. This stray dog, named Pluto, came into their lives one random day. 

He was there to protect them in many ways. He helped the little boy with his bullying. The youngest of the family got lost in town, Pluto found her. Which led to them moving to Colorado, where they lead a different life. 

The father no longer worked day and night, but the family still struggled. The boy was angry with his dad for not being there for him in California. 

The father, boy, two friends, and Pluto went on a camping trip where they got struck by lightning. Pluto took the brunt of the power from the strike. The dad had trouble moving his limbs and blood from his ears and the boys were just knocked out for a short time. Pluto didn’t make it.

Pluto was a lifesaver.

The universe knows best. 

I am a strong believer the universe knows what’s best. As I watched the movie, I thought the dog came into their lives for a reason. I realized in the end, it was to protect the family from losing a father. Without Pluto taking the majority of the force, the father would not have survived and the boys would have been stuck in the wilderness alone. 

Back in 1991, cell phones were not prevalent or possibly non-existent. I couldn’t imagine what would have happened to the boys. 

The universe knew something was going to happen that night. The family debated whether Pluto should go or stay home. He went. And for a good reason that no one knew about. 

This happens to us all.

When we trust in the universe, it gives us what we need, in the moment, to grow and be our better selves. I can show you many examples in my life where the universe made things happen. If you told me about your life, I could tell you exactly where the universe was and why it was there. 

Seriously…

I am not kidding…

Things happen for a reason

Nina came into my life and changed it completely. I wouldn’t have quit my job at Educarte if it wasn’t for her. She came into my life and all I wanted to do was make sure she had the best. That meant being home more often to play with her and love on her. 

Not only do I support her, but she also supports me. She reminds me to love myself. Nina shows me the times I need space or the times I need exercise. Nina is an eye-opener for me. I know that I am capable of many things.

Nina showing up on my doorstep. The electricity bill was outrageous so I had to move. Quitting my job to move to Costa Rica. Starting this blog. 

All of it happened for a reason. 

This blog started off as a no big deal, share my adventures with my family type deal. I never thought weidergabe would be what it is today. It’s not a huge success and it’s not making me any money, but it does have readers from all over the world. Weidergabe has inspired people to live their best life. To follow their dreams and to make a difference in the world. 

I never would have imagined two years ago weidergabe being where it is today. I have visions and ideas to take this blog someplace amazing. 

GO after your dreams!

The universe has your back. It knows what you need to listen to your heart. Find yourself and dig deep within to be present to what the universe wants for you.

No dreams are too big. No dreams are too small. It is possible even if you have no money or you have no idea what you’re doing. Find a way and make it happen. 

Let the big things come into your life even if they seem scary. Embrace the little things and remember they are there for you from the universe. 

SELF-LOVE is the way to find the universe because the universe is within you.

The Revolving Boyfriend

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day. She lives in Peru and is having a hard time because everyone is in love and she is “alone”. She has a fear that she will never find that one person. I understand her fear because it is something that has come across my mind many times. 

She and I are both in our 30s. Most people we know are married and have a family already. Everywhere you look there are people, movies, and commercials telling you that you need to fulfill certain things to be considered successful in life. 

Over the last few years, I have come to terms with not getting married or finding that perfect person that I would spend my life with. It wasn’t easy to do because of so many people saying “you need kids, you need to be married, and you need a family of your own.” 

I mean there are coaches that help you find the love of your life that make millions of dollars finding people that special someone. For me, I want to help people find themselves and be whatever they are supposed to be. I think the world would be a better place if we focused on finding self-love instead of finding someone to love us. 

The Revolving Boyfriends

As I was figuring out myself, I coined the term “the revolving boyfriends”. It is when your life’s purpose is to better society and making a difference one boyfriend at a time. As women, we are life. We grow and create new life within our bodies to have babies. Why can’t we change the world by creating a different kind of life within our womb? 

Men don’t have a womb to create life, as women can. We create life then inspire the change through the men. So, if I am stuck with one man my entire life how can I make an impact on society like I am supposed to? your probably thinking of having guy friends, which is possible. But… sometimes you don’t get the intimacy you need by being “just friends”. So this brings me to… Well, revolving boyfriends!

A revolving boyfriend could be in my life (or yours) for a short time or a long time. It depends on what you and the man need to learn from the relationship. If you learn quickly then it may be a short relationship. It could be longer if there is deeper work to be done. 

It doesn’t mean you are less worthy

Just because you have revolving boyfriends doesn’t mean that you less of a woman. It doesn’t mean you are not special or worthy of love. It means you have a higher power that will change the world and make a difference in the lives of every man (or woman) you date. It doesn’t mean that you aren’t good enough or stable enough for that one love. It means you are worth more than just ONE LOVE! You have so much love you can spread it out and make a bigger impact on the world.

It doesn’t mean you are meant to fix them. We aren’t here to fix men (or women), we are here to grow more aware and conscious within ourselves. We are here to experience life in a new way. A way that isn’t told to us by society or commercials.

The world may say that you need that perfect man to be whole. I promise you there are more ways to feel whole than having the perfect man, marriage, or baby. Personally, I know this is true because I feel whole with or without a man. I live my best life and I live it with integrity, faith, and love. You can feel whole within yourself by being your real self. Feeling whole can come from volunteering or learning to love unconditionally. It can come from loving yourself so much that you follow your dreams even if they aren’t what society tells you is correct.

To change the world, we need to change the way we see the world.

The world is broken. It is full of greed, hate, fear, and anger. That is why we have so many wars and devastation. If you want to see the world be full of faith, love, and integrity, then we need to change the way we live it. 

This starts with seeing marriage, babies, and ourselves differently. That is why I am creating content that focuses on self-love and testing the boundaries with the way I live. 

We will all suffer if we chase after things that are not meant for us. I am not meant for getting married or having a child. I am meant for something BIGGER and more GRAND

It is okay if no one understands this except you. There are others out there like me and my friend that meant for the life of revolving boyfriends and manifesting a new way of living. 

Don’t be afraid… EMBRACE IT!

My Recent Move

I am in my happy place! The other day I briefly wrote about having to move because of the electricity situation with my landlord. It was a very quick and fast move. It was all done within 3-4 days. 

Sunday, I saw the apartment. Monday, my landlord asked me to pay him $180 more for electricity. Tuesday, I met the new landlord and paid part of the deposit. Thursday, I moved in. 

I was worried about money because I basically paid rent twice this month. I was nervous because moving can be costly as well. This place isn’t fully furnished liked my last 2 places. I realize I can do without some of those things. I can “toast” my bread in a pan instead of a toaster. I can borrow a blender from my neighbor for a while instead of buying my own for smoothies. It will all work out just fine. And it has so far. 

Have Faith

When you take a risk, faith is all you need. If it is the right decision the universe will give you what you need. Have faith that the universe is on your side. There are so many beautiful things that can come from change. Sometimes change brings sadness or pain which is okay too. There is something to learn from it all so have faith.

I have lived by faith for as long as I can remember. It has never failed me. Even in my darkest times, I had the faith and perseverance to overcome the situations. I am a better, stronger, and more loving person because of the faith I have. It gives me hope. I always believed there was something better awaiting me at the end of the tunnel. I always knew that life is worth living to the fullest. 

Some people have faith in God. Some people have faith in the universe. It really doesn’t matter who you have faith in, just have faith that there is something higher than you looking out for you. 

Thoughts

Thoughts are powerful. I had been thinking about moving for the last few weeks before this all took place. I thought that I needed to be closer to the beach so I could take pictures for the blog or I could go whenever I wanted, not having to worry about a ride. I thought I could find a place that was cool and tranquil. My last place was good for where I had been the last 6 months, however, times have changed.

Those thoughts I had constantly put the energy out into the universe. I was able to manifest my thoughts into reality. That’s how things happen. You manifest what you think. I had faith that I would find the perfect apartment when the time was right. I knew I would be where I needed to be when I needed to be there. Faith and manifesting allowed the universe to see the potential I had. 

I am in a different place now because I quit at Educarte. I took control of my time and my life. All of this change lead me to the right place to live. 

My Apartment

My apartment is in the town of Brasilito, but not too close to the center. I have peace and space. I upgraded to a two-bedroom apartment with outdoor space in the back for Nina. There is a hotel next door that allows me to use the pool if eat at the restaurant. The beach is a 2-minute walk from my front door. I have many windows for airflow and trees to block the sun so it stays cool. My kitchen is the perfect size for me. The living room has plenty of seating if I have friends come to visit. Nina has plenty of space to run in the front as well as at the beach. (We have gone to the beach every day since we moved.) 

My new apartment. There’s work to be done with the organization.

The Community

When I lived here before, I knew everyone in town and everyone knew me. I felt a sense of community because I had so many contacts and locals who I could talk to and visit. When I moved to Huacas I lost all of that because I didn’t come to Brasilito often and the community isn’t as tight in Huacas. 

I can now build the sense of community I had before. And this time it is better because my Spanish is so much better. There is so much opportunity here for me emotionally, physically, and spiritually. 

Keep Faith and Manifest Your Thoughts

All things are possible. I am living proof. Have faith in something higher. Keep your thoughts pure so you can manifest them in your favor. Don’t give up. There is always something better. Always something that will surprise you. Life is what you make it. So make it a good life!

When life gets you down, what do you do?

Give up, feel pitty? 

NO WAY! I keep fighting and I keep trying even if I get knocked down.

The last few months have been tough. I know you guys don’t know everything, but switching jobs has been tough. I haven’t been making the money I need to make to survive. I am making it happen because of some support from friends and family. 

I know my worth and won’t settle for less when it comes to which company I work for to teach English. I love teaching with Open English because I always have classes when I work. The problem is they don’t pay much. I also work for VIPKid, but it has been slow to gain students. I have been looking for other companies like VIPKid, but haven’t found the perfect one. 

Am I letting this stop me from living my best life? 

HELL NO!! I am doing everything I can to make it work. I am unstoppable. I’m not letting this stop me. I am fighting and I am so pumped for what happens in the future. I know my life is getting better because the struggle is real.

I have been interviewing with as many companies to find the perfect one. I also scored a job with an amazing girl here in Costa Rica. I’m helping her with her blog and learning along the way. I took over managing a facebook group which has been an amazing experience. Even though I am not making money I am gaining so much self-confidence and experience that it is well worth it! 

The Universe knows all!

In the last few weeks, I have been thinking about moving. I live farther from the beach so I don’t take as many photos of the sunsets for the blog. I don’t have as many beautiful places in my house to showcase for my blog. I miss the beach. I miss the town of Brasilito. I knew everyone and everyone knew me. At my place now, I don’t know anyone. It’s not a community. Even though I am an introvert, I can learn so much from being around people. I miss the connection I had in my old town.

Yesterday, it all started. I went to a swap meet for the facebook group I now run. I ran into a lady who lives in Brasilito. Her apartment complex has some openings. It would be 2 minutes from the beach, a hotel with a pool I can use 100 meters away, and it has plenty of space for Nina to run. I went to check out her place and fell in love. The only problem is she doesn’t allow pets.

Today, my landlord tells me I owe him $180 for electricity. I already pay him $60 so it’s so much more. I can’t afford that. And IT IS OUTRAGEOUS!! In my old apartment, I never paid over $100 for electricity and the room was smaller. I am feeling like it is all happening because it’s meant to be for me to move. 

The only thing standing in the way is the apartment I want may not let me live there because of Nina. I am going to talk to her tomorrow, hopefully, I can convince her to let us move in. If it doesn’t happen, I know the universe has a plan.

“Love is everything”

As I sit here typing, I am watching soul surfer. It is the story of Bethany Hamilton. The girl who lost her arm to a shark attack while surfing. She beat all odds to get back out there to surf. She hit some big waves, and she overcame them all. 

In the movie, she said love and compassion were what helped her through. While she was in Thailand helping the people recover after the massive tsunami, she realized that it’s not about surfing, it’s about love. She allowed herself to love herself again even though she wasn’t “whole”.

She inspired so many people with her attempt to get back out on the waves. She lost and she got beat down, but she tried. It is all about love and trying. In the movie, Bethany stated that she would never change what happened to her because she has more love now than she ever could with two arms. 

The more you overcome your difficulties, the more love you have for yourself. You see how strong you are and you see what you are capable of accomplishing. 

Change isn’t easy, but it’s worth it.

I am scared about moving houses. I also know that moving houses is the best thing for me and my career. In the last month, I have conquered so many fears. I am staying calm and looking forward to the future. I have realized that even though I am an empath and an introvert, I can have the relationships I desire to have. 

Change is hard, and it is what can bring you a life-changing event. So, what are you afraid to do because you think you’re not good enough or capable enough? I can tell you from experience that none of that is true. You are GOOD ENOUGH and CAPABLE ENOUGH to have whatever you want in life. You have to work for it. You have to feel uncomfortable and do what no one else would do. 

I promise a short time of being uncomfortable will change your entire future. Feeling uncomfortable is temporary if you learn, grow, fight, and never give up. 

Go after your dreams. Make a statement. Live your best life. Be free!

Dogs are Family

A girl with a puppy on her lap.

I have had dogs in the past. My family and I always had a dog growing up. We had different dogs at different times. 

During my elementary years, the ones I remember the most were the black lab that ran like crazy. And a small, black mixed dog that pooped in the house all the time. 

During high school years, we had wired-haired fox terriers. They were not my favorite dogs. 

In college, I was a dog walker/sitter. I had some great dogs that I liked and some dogs that I wanted to never watch again. 

I love dogs. They are so much more fun than cats. They all have had a personality that varied from dog to dog. I couldn’t be around the dogs for more than a few days. I got annoyed with them for one reason or another.

I never felt a deep connection to dogs. 

I am not sure what the problem was. Even last year when I fostered the dog for a few weeks, I was ready to give him back after a week or so. The energy or something just felt off to me. My house felt strange and the dog seemed super needy. 

I felt the dogs weren’t mine. I didn’t feel connected to them, none of them. Even as a child. I was hesitant when I got Nina because I didn’t want to take her in and get tired of her like I did the other dogs I’ve had in my life.

When I got Nina…

The night I got Nina, I also had her brother. They were both incredibly different. Nina’s brother was full of fleas and was whining and crying the whole night. He was scratching and so uncomfortable. Nina didn’t have as many fleas, but she did have dehydration, a skin problem, and worms. Nina just snuggled up to Jonathan and slept the entire night. 

I just knew that Nina was the one. I wasn’t sure if I would get tired of her, however, I knew between the two puppies Nina was the one for me. 

She has been the light of my life. I can’t imagine my life without her. Nina makes me laugh and is so well behaved. I took the time to train her right. With her still being a puppy, she has some things to learn. However, she is like me in a lot of ways. 

We have the same energy. 

I feel connected to Nina because we have the same energy. She is full of life and knows when I need something. If I need space she calms down and just sits with me. If I need to get moving, she gets excited and we play fetch outside. 

She loves everyone and greets everyone with a smile. On the other hand, she does notice people’s energy and barks at people who she feels aren’t a good person. Seriously, there is a vet down the street that she barks at every single time she sees him. He is the only vet she does that too. She absolutely hates going to the vet, but she never barks at the vet. This one (who we have never used) she won’t even go near them. 

This is the same for me. I can feel people’s energies and don’t want to go around certain people because of how they “feel” to me. I don’t like the vet Nina doesn’t like because of his energy, so I understand why Nina doesn’t want to go near him either. 

A girl with a puppy on her lap.

I couldn’t imagine my life without her

She has made my life better in so many ways. I have learned to love myself and listen to my self more than I did before. She has helped me think positive and motivate me to get my work done. Part of the reason I left my steady teaching job was so I could be home with her. Nina is much better when I am here with her. Even if she is in her crate while I am working, I can let her out and give her attention more than I could before.

I want to be able to take her to this amazing dog training lady about an hour away. I am working towards getting a higher paid job so that I can afford to take her. She would love the place. There is a gym that could hone in on her monkey-like skills. 

Nina is like a child in the sense that she pushes me to be a better me. I am happy she is in my life. I want her to explore the world and see what she is capable of. She is family.

The little girl downstairs calls me “la mama de Nina” which translates to Nina’s mommy. I am Nina’s mom and she is my puppy daughter.

How has your puppy or animal changed your life? What have you learned from being a puppy mom?