Greater

Hey everyone,

Life has been tough for me the last two weeks. It has been full of ups and downs. I have been questioning things I have never once questioned. The thing is I am still pushing. I am still aware of what needs to be done. I am aware of myself. I may not be able to see the future and I may not be able to see tomorrow. That is okay because I can see right now. I can see the work that is being done in my life. So many areas of my life that are being pushed and pulled. My relationship with my fiancé. My attitude towards people. My responses towards people. My strength in myself. My ability to keep going despite not having the answers.

 

I feel alone here in Costa Rica and I feel so loved at the same time. Everyday I keep faith that the fight will be over soon. I moved here because I knew this wasn’t going to be easy. I moved here because my feminine work needs to be alone. I will become aware of so many things that I never knew existed. I will look back on this time and know that I did my best. I never gave up. I put all I had into the journey I am on. I couldn’t be more scared in my life because I have no clue WHO I will be this time next year. I have no clue WHERE I will be this time next year. I know where I am TODAY and that’s all that matters. I know that the universe has something in store for me that I could never imagine. I know that not only will I be someone I couldn’t imagine the people around me will be someone they didn’t know they could be either. I know this because the last time I went through something like this the people around me changed. They became something beautiful just like I had.

 

I don’t post a whole lot of stuff about the events that go on in the world because I think that the way for me to do something about it is to become who I need to be and people around me will follow. My mother is this amazing women that I couldn’t imagine my life without. She guides me in many aspects of my life with her wisdom and advice. She always has the right things to say. They may not be easy to hear all the time and it’s always what I need. I used to think that my mom was against me and she didn’t know anything. It took me a long time to understand that my mom made mistakes and that doesn’t make her any less amazing. My mom has done many things that I admire and strive to be. One being that she is honest. When I need advice she is always honest. She has learned from her mistakes which has shown me that I need to own up to my mistakes and my shortcomings. She is not afraid to tell me what mistakes she has made with raising me or my sister. She is honest about her mistakes she made with my father. This is probably the most amazing thing ever. I have learned that being honest and owning up to your mistakes is how you learn and grown.

 

My sister is really overcoming so many things in her life. I may not talk to her all the time yet I see how she is evolving. It is amazing to watch. I am having more and more conversations with her that I love and appreciate. My dad and I are able to talk about more things that we have never talked about in our life. It is just amazing to see the transformations and love that a family can have. Our actions to situations and events show us what we are made of. It gives others the inspiration and courage to step out of their comfort zones to become someone they didn’t know they could.

 

My fiancé is a big person in my life. I may be questioning where our relationship will be in a year or two. I do know that today he is showing me how to be alone. He is showing me love. He is showing me patience. He is showing me things that I don’t quite understand. I am blessed beyond words how amazing this man is. I know that he is struggling having me so many miles away. I know that it’s hard for him in ways that I cannot understand. I don’t know what will happen with us after a year of being in different countries. I do know that if I have faith and I keep looking within myself it will all work out.

Life is something wonderful because it gives you what you need. If you become aware and conscious though those times it will give you more back than you ever expected.

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I can SEE!!

Hey guys

I have some exciting news! I finally got Lasik surgery done. I can see without contacts or glasses! This is so amazing! I have been wanting Lasik for years. It is much cheaper here in Costa Rica. I had planned on getting it done in late December/ Early January. I had to go to the doctors so he could exam my eyes to see if it was eligible for the surgery. I had made the appointment for this past Monday in San Jose. I took a shuttle out Saturday afternoon and came back Monday Evening.

 

My appointment was Monday at 9am. I showed up on time. I filled out the normal paperwork for the doctors. Then they did some pretty basic eye exams that I have had done many times before. The doctor used a special light to see if there was anything wrong with my eyes. My eyes were fine so he said I could go ahead and book the appointment. I told them the dates that I was available. Since the office ladies only speak Spanish I had a translator. The translator spoke to the office lady, then asked if I wanted to get the surgery done today. I was surprised and shocked. I replied “suuuure, as long as I can be back at the hotel by 1pm for my bus home. They got the doctor to double check if this was alright.

Within an hour, I was in the “operating” room being given directions, eye drops, and protective gear. The surgery was super quick. I don’t want to say it was easy because it wasn’t easy for me. I had to keep my eyes straight without moving. I could see everything that was going on with the laser and the doctor. My eye sight changed a few times during the procedure so it was freaking me out a bit. I had to be conscious of my breathing and my eye movements. It was very tough for me.

I was unable to see clearly for the rest of the day. It was super blurry and my eyes watered. The translator made sure I got into the correct Uber, going to the correct hotel. The people at the doctors were amazing. I would go back there again for any eye needs. I had to rest my eyes while I was at the hotel because they were sore and watery. I really could barely see anything. I had to wear these big ol’ sunglasses.

I took the bus the 5 hours home. My eye sight was slightly better when I got home. I could tell that they would be okay. Once I got home I put my drops in my eyes. I have to wear

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My night gear

these plastic things over my eyes when I sleep so that I don’t rub or hurt them. I woke up the next day and my eye sight was pretty good. I was amazed. I was still sensitive to light pretty badly. I could see though so that’s all that mattered. My eyes have been doing good every the last few days. I have this overwhelming feeling to take my contacts out before going to bed. That will be something I have to get used to. I have worn contacts for over 15 years.

I am very blessed and happy with the surgery. It is amazing what the technology can do. It is amazing!! I am still in shock that I got the surgery. It is surreal that I can see without contacts or glasses. Life is good!

 

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The day after

Tropical Storm Nate: Costa Rica

Hey Everyone,

The last few days have been a hectic few days. As some of you know Costa Rica got hit with a tropical depression turned tropical storm. We got a ton of rain in a short amount of time. It caused all sorts of damage.

On Wednesday, my neighbor and I left the house as usual to go to work. It was raining just like it had rained the morning before so we didn’t think anything out of the ordinary. We get to school and do our normal routine of printing and preparing for the day. It was darker than normal so they turned the lights on in the covered common area. The children show up and we do our morning anthem singing. After the anthem, we go about our day and start teaching. The rain continues which it sometimes does, so again I think nothing different. Around 10:30am, a parent comes in and tells me she is taking her child home and said she won’t be back the next day due to the rain. She said that river before her house is almost unpassable. I saw that other teachers were busy outside which wasn’t normal. I went to ask what was going on. They said we were closing school early due to the flooding and rain. I was unaware of how much rain we actually got so I just told my neighbor to contact our driver to come get us early. I helped my students get their things ready to go home.

All but one of my students left before 11:30. The last students mom was at another school picking up her daughter. She would be here as soon as possible. My neighbor and I got a message saying that our driver cannot pick us up. So we talked with another teacher who goes past our house. She said she could take us home. The problem was that she couldn’t get her car out of the parking lot. Something I didn’t understand until we got to the main gate headed for the main road. When I got to the main gate of school I saw the side road. It was a huge river!! I mean massive. No cars could use the road. (see videos below) We walked down the school parking lot and come to another “river” that we had to pass in order to get to the person picking us up. Five of us linked arms and crossed the river (see video below). We got to the car and headed for our house. The roads were flooded and scary. As soon as I got home I filled buckets with water and got my flash lights ready. I knew the power would be going out soon.

I had a friend coming to visit as well. He was on a bus from San Jose. The power went off about 30 minutes after I got home. Since the power went out here, I had no internet and my Costa Rican cell service wasn’t working. I had to turn my US phone off airplane mode so I could get service to contact him and see where he was. He got stuck about an hour from here because of the water on a bridge. They had to reroute. He made it here about 2 hours later. Since he didn’t have cell service he couldn’t contact me to come outside. He had to use a picture I sent him the day before in the pitch black to find the gate to my apartment. He finally found it which was great! The rain hasn’t stopped. It has slowed tremendously though. The town closest to me, Brasilito, didn’t have much damage. The power came back on for us yesterday evening.

Today I went to Tamarindo just for a few hours to get a bite to eat and show my friend the area. They didn’t have power and trees were still falling. The water level had gone down a lot. Yet some places still have water that isn’t draining.IMG_6638

On the way back from Tamarindo a tree had fallen in the road. We couldn’t pass by car. So, we got out, walked around it, and got another ride on the other side. It has been a bit crazy. So many people are with out power and some are stranded. They are doing rescue missions by boat for people. It is a mess. I am going to try to link up with my church to go help people in any way I can.

On the plus side, I was able to get some plants for my apartment on the way back from Tamarindo! Please, send Costa Rica and all that are being hit by the tropical storm love and energy for a quick recovery. Most people here have a lot of loss and damage.

Regrets? I think not.

I’ve been thinking about regret lately. Recently, someone asked me, “if I could change anything in my past what would it be?” My reply was “nothing.” This surprised everyone in the room. I have had a lot of things happen that I would want to change don’t get me wrong. I would have loved for my grandmother to have lived to see me today. I would have loved to have my marriage last longer than 2 years. I would have loved to have been a better best friend to a long time friend of mine. The thing is, I wouldn’t do anything differently in my past marriage. I wouldn’t have done anything differently with my long term friend. I wouldn’t have changed my grandmother’s death even if I could.

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This seems silly and absurd to most people because they wouldn’t want to go through a divorce or a death of a loved one. To me, this is life, lessons learned. I have learned so many things from my past. I wouldn’t be who I am today if it wasn’t for my past. I have made mistakes. I have had sadness. I have lost people. The thing is that the mistakes, sadness, and loss has shown me what I am capable of. It has shown me what I deserve. It has given me the strength and hope to keep growing.

 

I do not regret the way I was with my ex-husband. I was a horrible wife. I didn’t give him space or the trust he deserved. I was clingy and suffocating. Don’t get me wrong, I was also loving and silly with him too. The thing is he and I were not soul mates. We were not supposed to marry each other for the long haul. We were put into each others lives so that we could learn something about ourselves. After we separated, we found that special person for each other that is right for us. He found a women that gave him what I never could. I found a man that showed me real love and commitment. If I changed anything that happened in that marriage, we might not have found the person who was perfect for us. He just so happened to have found the women he needed in the mist of our ending marriage. I found my man a few months after my marriage ended. During the few months between my marriage and meeting Jon I learned many things about myself that I would never change. If I changed my past marriage I might not have learned those things when I did.

 

I am grateful for my past. I am grateful for the memories and the lessons I learned. I am grateful for the life I have now because of the hard times I went through. I have more things to learn and more mistakes to make. I have more things to be grateful for in the future. I look for those times because life is worth loving and living.

 

Another quote that sticks out to me is… “don’t regret anything. At one time, it was exactly what you wanted.” All the things I’ve gone through were things I wanted at one point, whether it was conscious or unconscious. I wanted the pain and I wanted the love and everything else in between. If I say I regret that choice or this choice, I am denying a part of me. I accept all of me and that means my mistakes and my accomplishments. I love myself completely. I love my past because it was once what I wanted. It was what I needed to propel myself forward into a deeper understanding.

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Life is too short to regret. So, love your past. Learn from your past. And accept your past with all your heart so that you can grow deeper within yourself. The more you grow the higher your vibrations will be!

Scuba Diving and Conscious Breathing

Hey Everybody,

I have been learning so much since the last time I wrote. I have been learning about conscious breathing. Conscious breathing is very amazing. It started with a scuba diving trip with my fiancé this weekend. I had never been scuba diving before so I thought it would be fun to try with the love of my life. It would be a great experience for us to have together. So, I booked a discovery scuba diving tour.

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We had to wake up around 6am because we needed to be at the scuba place around 6:45am. Once we get there, we filled out paper work and got fitted for our wet suits. Then, we went to a nearby hotel for practice in a swimming pool. The lady showed us how to use the oxygen tank, how to get the water out of the mask if it gets water in it, and practiced clearing our ears.

 

After the swimming pool, we headed to the shore to load onto the boat. We took the boat to Catalina Island’s just off the shore of Flamingo Beach. They gave us a few more instructions on the boat before fitting us with our tanks and other gear. As we started letting other people off the boat for their dives, I started to get real nervous. I had water in my eyes. When it was our turn we jumped off the boat and swam to the line to the bottom. The instructor told us she would go at our pace. We could take our time. Jon and I both had issues with different aspects of the dive. Jon had issues clearing his right ear which caused him to not be able to dive past a few feet. I, on the other hand, had issues with claustrophobia. The pressure is very different the farther down we went. It was difficult for me to get used to the breathing that is required to go down the 40 feet we needed to see the wonderful things below. After going down and up quite a few times, we made it about 3/4ths of the way down.

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We ran out of time for this dive so we loaded back on the boat to head to the next dive spot. Jon decided to stay on the boat because of his right ear. I decided I was going to make it to the bottom so I could see the fish. I was freaking out. When we got off the boat the 2nd time, we swam to the line for the bottom. I took a couple of deep breathes and started for the bottom. I had to be aware of my breathing because you have to keep breathing at a certain pace. We made it down to the bottom rather quickly. After getting to the bottom we started exploring the area. My instructor held on to me the entire time. She pointed out lots of different fish. It was amazing. I was doing well with my breathing and not freaking out until she pointed out a shark. I have never seen a shark that close so I had to really watch my breathing and my energy. I had little issues with my breathing after this. Sometimes I had the feeling I needed to go up to the service. Yet, I knew I would be fine so I kept watching my breathing and energy. I saw another shark as well as a seahorse, a pufferfish, tons of starfish, and “gill” from finding nemo.

 

We were down there for about 30 minutes or so. On the way up, was the time I had the most anxiety and trouble with my energy and breathing. I had to hold my energy and self-higher than the situation that I was in. On the way up there were tons of little white particles in the water. I was swimming right into them. My eyes kept trying to focus on the ones close up rather than looking past them and seeing the beyond. It was freaking my brain out. It seemed as though it wouldn’t end. My breathing was a little heavier and my energy was a bit crazy. I knew we were on the way to the surface so I slowed my breathing to normal and kept my energy above the craziness.

 

I have been practicing this while I am at school or home as well. It has been an amazing experience. Scuba diving is a wonderful experience that has taught me so much.

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“This is What I Need”

HEY Everyone!

Everyone thought I was crazy for moving to Costa Rica. I got a lot of questions like… what are you running away from? What will you do without your family or fiancé? Will it be safe? To be honest, I knew I would be fine except I wasn’t sure if I was running from something. I did a lot of digging within myself to see why I was moving here. I kept getting the same answer, “this is what you need.” After being here for almost 2 months I know I was not running from anything. In fact, I found everything.

I have been working out 4-5 times a week and eating healthy. I have seen a change in my physical appearance in just a short 2 month period. I am loving the feeling and energy I have from working out and eating healthy. I have been doing tae bo, swimming, lifting my little 3 pound weights, and of course walking! While I am at school, I do little work out games with the kids so they get their energy out. I am so active here.

Not only has my physical appearance changed, my relationship with my Fiancé has changed. I love him so much yet before I came to Costa Rica our relationship was stagnate. We stopped having tough conversations. We stopped pushing each other to be better. We stopped being intimate. We hung out all the time and we snuggled. We just didn’t have the same energy and passion we had a few years before. Since moving here, we have had some tough and rewarding conversations. We have had the passion and intimacy come back like we had when we first met, only better. Being long distance, has shown us so much about communication it is amazing. It is just the beginning too!

Most of you know, I attend a place in NYC called the Institute for Hermetic Philosophy. I cannot attend every month since I am in Costa Rica now. I was so scared to make this move and not have the lessons and homework from the school. I wasn’t going to make the move because I didn’t want to miss the classes once a month. I had to do the most digging with this decision than any of the others I had to make. Again, something said “this is what you need.” I had faith the universe would be right and give me what I need. After being here for 3 weeks, the universe gave me a place that I have to grow spiritually. The place is a little church in the jungle. I haven’t wanted to attended church in over 5 years. The churches I had been to in the US were not places I would want to be because of the unfriendly atmosphere. So after the universe told me to go to the little church in the jungle I have been going ever since. The place is unlike any church I have been too. They are love each other. The pastor truly loves ever person that comes through the door. The people are helpful and amazing. It feels like home. Thanks to the work I have done at IHP I am able to see the sermons in a different light that allows me to grow as a person.  Every week I go and the sermon answers something I needed an answer too just like at IHP.

After my last teaching job I felt like a horrible teacher. I didn’t want to teach again. My school her has renewed my love for teaching. I have some amazing students that push me in ways that I can’t explain. I love the other teachers and office staff. They are so warm and helpful. Last night, I went out with a bunch of other teachers. It was a great experience that never happened in the US. We went out for happy hour and sushi. Since I don’t drink I ordered virgins. Not once did anyone care that I wasn’t drinking. It was a great time.

One of my favorite quotes says, “Always go with the choice that scares you the most because that’s the one that is going to help you grow.” That is what happened to me. I made the choice that was the hardest and scariest, and now I am growing in more ways than one! Amazing! DO Something that scares you. GO deep and see what you can find. LOOK to the universe for what you need.

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Amazing School… Amazing Life!

HEY GUYS,

It has been an interesting week! I am not sure I would ever want to teach in the US after working at a school here. It is so completely different! The students here are wonderful. I mean some of them have issues, but what students don’t? The way they handle other students is something you rarely see in the US. Most of the children brush their teeth after lunch. All the classes from 1st grade to 6th grade have lunch and recess together at the same time. They have two recesses, one in the morning and one after lunch. The principal is unlike any principal I have seen. He offered me Spanish lessons so that I could become better at speaking Spanish. He gives hugs and is so enthusiastic about his job. I can go to the bathroom and leave the kids alone. They are doing the same thing I left them doing when I left. I have so much freedom about how I want to run my class. It is such an amazing place here.

 

I am learning so much about myself being here as well. I am learning how capable I am and how strong I am. My students and the parents are excited and happy to have me as their teacher. It is so rewarding being here. I am so exhausted when I get off work yet life is amazing I keep planning, cleaning, and cooking. I haven’t had the need to binge watch Netflix or waste time doing nothing when I have stuff to do. I have so much energy. It is some amazing, high energy that I wish I could explain.

 

I am excited for a weekend full of massages, beach time, and lesson planning!! Life is such an amazing thing to live and experience! I am just doing what the universe wants me to do and I keep getting everything and more back!

 

LIVE LIFE with PASSION, COMPASSION, and STYLE!!

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Shifting Your Perspective on Pain

“Sometimes we need to be hurt in order to grow. We must lose in order gain. Sometimes, some lessons are learned best through pain.” This quote is hitting home for me right now. I am hurting and losing so that I can grow and learn. I am learning so much about myself with this pain and hurt. There are so many lessons I am learning even though I am angry, upset, and mad. Those things are just my ego telling me that I am the victim. I had to yell and scream before I was able to say there is something on the other side of those feelings. My heart said “listen to me. I can show you the way to happiness.” I started listening and found out what I can do to better myself so that I can grow and be happy. I found out that I need to be honest and direct about the things that are being told to me by my intuition. Doing the things my heart is telling me is hard. I want to cry because a part of me doesn’t want to do it. I don’t want to go through this pain and hurt. I want it to be easy and pain free. That isn’t going to happen all the time because some lessons are learned best through pain.

Last night my fiancé and I got into a fight about something we have fought about many times in the past. It’s really hard to be a thousand miles away from the one that you love. You don’t have the physical or normal ways you use to show affection. All you have in communication. You can skype or facetime yet it’s still based on communication. I knew making this move to Costa Rica would test our communication in more ways than one. Last night, really brought to light how important communication is. We haven’t always had good communication when we lived with each other. I knew moving down here we would have to find new and healthier ways to communication. That’s one of the millions of reasons I made the move. We are supposed to get married next year. I don’t want to marry him unless I know we are in the right space for that. We aren’t right now. After this year of growth and struggle we will be. Why? Because we will have built an amazing foundation that was made from hard work and communication. Once that is built, we will be able to get through anything.

I have been learning that trusting in the universe and having faith will give you everything you need and more. I have been having emotions I haven’t had in over a year. These emotions are high in energy.  They are the driving force for me to dig deep within myself. These are the emotions that are giving me strength to put myself out there. I am feeling so feminine and beautiful. I am feeling confident and secure. I am in pain and I am in love. Life is such a wonderful thing.

Take away, that pain does not always have to be a horrible thing because in that pain you will find truth, love, and growth. How long it takes, depends on how long you take to let your guard down and let the truth, love, and growth into your heart.

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Learning about Friendships

Hey Everybody,

I have been doing a lot of thinking about how to be a better friend. I found that I am not good at showing friends appreciation and love. It got me thinking about my friends from home. I have a few friends at home. I don’t talk to most of them except occasionally. I used to talk to them more when our lives where not so different. Now we have jobs, and lives separate from each other. When we get so busy working our crazy jobs or have a life that keeps us apart it makes it hard to talk. Part of me thinks that if we are friends we should reach out even just to say hey how are you, yet this doesn’t happen except one way. It gets hard to send messages and get no replies or a reply months later. It takes a lot of energy and time to try to reach out when there is no feedback except when their lives are free.

So, I wonder… is there something wrong with me? Why do “my friends” not seem to respond or want to hang out other than once every three to four month? Why do other people seem to have an abundance of friends who they go on trips with and hang out on a regular basis and I don’t? What is there for me to learn from all this? What can I do to be a better friend? A friend that people want to hang out with and go places with. I can definitely say I am in a much better place than I was 5 years ago. I have learned a lot about friendship and still have a long way to go.

I was on Facebook this afternoon and realized that people who have friends who are close send shout outs to their friends in a show of appreciation. I don’t really do this. I have trouble telling my close friends what they mean to me. For birthday wishes, it’s just a happy birthday have a great day. When it should be a more loving and appreciative wish to them.

Recently, my neighbors have made comments about how they like me and such. As they would say things like that I could notice I never said anything about liking them and appreciating how awesome they are and how much I will miss them when they leave in a week. A true friend would want to share with the world how awesome the best friends are. I tell the world how awesome my fiancé is so why can’t I do that with my best and close friends?

As a part of my journey of becoming my better self I am going to push myself to be appreciative of my friends and see what happens.

To start this off right now… Evelin, is an amazing friend of mine. Despite having a crawling baby and a full-time job she makes time to talk with me and see how I am doing. She shares what’s going on in her life with me from the small things like the fruit she ate that day to the big things like the baby starting to crawl. We met when we worked at Claire’s in July 2010 and have been friends since. Even after I left Claire’s we made time to have lunch or chat on the phone. The last two years we have grown closer and I appreciate all the things we have gone through. I loved being there when her water broke and the baby was born. I loved being able to talk about breakups and lows we are having with life. I felt so blessed to have her in my life. I have learned so much from her. Even though I am in Costa Rica and she is in Maryland, I feel close to her. We talk at least twice a week and send photos and videos to each other. The other day I was on an adventure to a town nearby. While I was on the bus we were texting about her part time job she just got and a man got on the bus and started speaking to the whole bus. Since it was in Spanish I had no idea what he was saying. I told her and she said to message her a recording of him and she would translate (she speaks Spanish). I sent her the recording and she translated. He was preaching some bible stuff. These are the times I love and appreciate about my friendship with her. Out of all my friends, she is one of the only friends who reaches out and makes an effort. I appreciate the effort and love I feel from her on a daily basis. It is amazing to have a best friend like her!

Thank you, Evelin for everything that you do. I love you and our friendship! To many more years of growth and love!

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An Adventure To Santa Cruz

There is something really cool about traveling alone in a foreign country. I have traveled in the US alone and it’s exciting. Traveling alone in Costa Rica when there is a language barrier is the best experience for getting to know yourself. It is far more invigorating than anything I have experienced.

I normally go to the beach or stay home. Last night I decided I wanted to go somewhere other than the beach, but I didn’t want to have to take different buses. The bus that runs in front of my house goes to Santa Cruz. I heard there are some stores there and other things. So why not take the bus. I woke up showered, ate a small breakfast, and hopped on the bus. As I was waiting for the bus, one of the guys from next door came and asked me to go to some bull things on September 2nd. The bus drove through a few different towns that I haven’t been to before dripping me off in Santa Cruz. The ride took around and hour and twenty minutes.

IMG_5968I did a little research before I went to see if there was a post office there. Once I got there, I walked around for a bit just to get the lay of the land. I walked past a few stores and shops that I have seen in San Jose. I found a park that was such a cute place. IMG_5971The park had a stage, playground, outdoor workout machines, and a pavilion. I decided to go hunt for the post office. It was hard to find because it wasn’t where the GPS said it was. I found a guy and he gave me directions. Mind you he didn’t speak English. He told me to go straight three blocks, as at least that’s what I thought he said. I wasn’t too sure, so I walked straight for three blocks and there was the post office! I sent a few post cards to friends and family back home. The stamp had a snake on it. It was cool.img_5972.jpg

After the post office, I walked around to find an ATM to get cash out for my rent that’s due in a few days. There was one across the street from the bus station. I went inside and low and behold no dollars. I went in search for another ATM. I found one near the park, again no dollars. So, I gave up on looking for cash and just walked around. I found a school supplies store that has quite a few things I may need once school starts. I also found a plastic store for tubberwear I may need for storage at school if they don’t have any. They had other stores too. I bought two Spanish baby books for my best friend at home and a small paring knife for the kitchen.

Not only did I find some really cool stores, I got kissed on the shoulder by some strange man and a knuckle bump from some other random man. It made me laugh. At home, men holler and hoot at women in a way that I very off putting. Here it seems to be a sign of affection and admiration. I got on the bus back home and was super exhausted I almost fell asleep. About 20 minutes in to the bus ride, this man got on the bus and started talking. I had no idea what he was saying. I told my best friend in the states who speaks English. She said to record him and her will tell me what he says. He was apparently preaching to the bus about Jesus and such.

I made it home safely and sleepy. I noticed today how uplifting it is to go out on my own here. Despite being tired from the day, I feel full of energy and self-esteem. I found this quote today that describes perfectly what it’s like to travel alone, “When the traveler goes alone he gets acquainted with himself.” I really like this quote because it is so true. This is the reason I chose to come to Costa Rica. I wanted to get acquainted with myself in a way that I could not do back at home. I have distractions here some are similar to the ones at home and others are not. This place has an energy about I that just puts me at peace so I can do the things I need to do to raise my vibrations. I have the energy to exercise and eat healthy. I struggle with getting out and making friends like I do at home. Yet, it’s okay because I am working on myself and seeing what I’m capable of. I am creating an energy in my new home so when I start working and have trouble I have a place to come to. A place to recharge and energize myself for the next day. It is amazing.

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